Friday, Friday, Friday! I couldn't be happier. For the first time in my life I'm glad I'm not doing anything this weekend.
In the past I would hate Fridays because it usually meant sitting alone in my house for 48 hours. Lamenting how no body loves me everyone hates me- gonna go eat worms.
Laying in bed as late as possible so I won't get hungry- cause it sucks cooking for one.
Tormenting my self with the memories of laying in bed with my ex- sharing the lazy weekend.
And now I am almost cured!
I love laying in the king sized bed- alone. And watching what I want on t.v.
Hovering in that space between sleep and awake, dreaming.
Today I love it.
The past few weekends have been filled with friends and fun- but honestly that shit can be exhausting. It's difficult to be "on" exciting and engaging. Its not like its a facade it's who I really am. But you would be exhausted if you were Me- no doubt.
Its not easy to live life- balls to the wall- full of gusto. I give a lot of energy in the daylight-
I wouldn't have it anyother way. It feels great to be included and liked. And I have sobriety to thank for that. I am excited to lay in bed all weekend shirking the mundane details, and I'm going to pray to God he doesn't allow guilt to motivate me to be constructive.
Enjoy your weekend I know I will enjoy mine!
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